Party Without Alcohol Is Different
What is going on, psychonauts? The holidays are over, it is time to get back to work. I hope you have some understanding for my one-month-long holiday.
Some time ago, I wrote about my biggest fear in sobriety. It was the worry to lose my ability to party like a mad man.
The time had come and the possibility to go to an outdoor party presented itself. Let me describe this experience on 0,0% vol.
There was a festival nearby of my living place, it was a rock festival. I already visited that one several times and it was always fun.
But this time was different, I had no experience altering substances to help me have fun.
Normally I would look forward to an event like that and be excited to get started. This time my first thought was. “When will I get home?”
I decided to be the driver because I am such a nice guy, but in reality I wanted to make sure I can drive myself home whenever I get bored or uncomfortable.
I picked up some friends and we started the ride. Music was playing, and I felt like I was 25 again. But only for several minutes till the well known worries of an adult came back to my mind.
When we arrived, we were greeted by a lake where the visitors of the festival were gathering.
I took a look around, and I got a sense of freedom. Everybody looked very relaxed and carefree. We sat down on the grass and chilled for some moments.
Now it was time to get on the festival grounds. Unfortunately, I had some problems with my Corona-App and internet connection. That was where I sparked some hope that I could have a reason not to get in. I could just drive home and watch snooker again. My new kind of party.
Unfortunately, my mobile phone got some connection again and I entered the stage. Because of Corona, a lot of the terrain was caged. In comparison to the other years, it felt narrowly and caged.
I took a look around, it was muddy and people drank beer out of plastic glasses. That was a moment where I felt a complete alienation from this place. I could not understand what it was all about. And how the heck this should be fun.
Luckily, this uneasy feeling went away, and I started to relax, have some conversation and enjoy myself.
At midnight the party took a turn, it was dark and all of a sudden the music got so damn loud. It was so loud that my ears almost imploded. I guess you need to be smashed to be able to cope with that. I never had problems of that kind in the past.
In addition to that, they turned on some heavy flashlights on the stage. The lights hit my eyes, and I was overwhelmed with all of that. That was the point I decided it was enough and drove home.
It was a very good Idea to tell my friends I would pick them up 3 at night. At home, I was fighting with my sleep till I picked them up. That party was not as exciting as when I would have gotten smashed from head to toes. But that is no problem because the benefits of sobriety are not for free. You have to pay the price.
Partying sober is a completely different experience. Still, I will force myself into nightlife here and there to not become socially awkward.
That is it guys, I hope you had some great holidays and some safe nightlife experiences.
