Another Weird Dream
The evening started innocently, I was watching a series on Netflix out of my bed. In the series a glass of beer and a shot were shown, I think that triggered a dream of partying and drinking for me.
Thinking of nothing bad I felt asleep, that’s when my brain decided to play a movie in my head without even asking.
All of a sudden, I find myself at a party location. I do it right there, I drink a beer and a shot and always the next one after that. I am supposed to have fun while drinking. Something whispers in my ear. “You are having fun, you are having fun just take the next drink” I do so, I am behaving like I should on a party. I drink, dance, and exchange phone numbers with people that I don’t know and will never meet again. We dance together and we laugh together.
I am having fun. I am having fun. But something is not right, I can feel it through my dream. Something is odd, my intuition clearly says: “This stinks.”
Everything in that party room is getting blurry. It is a mix of sounds, smells faces and lights. It is like somebody mixed everything together.
I am there with some people I know, are they two or four? I can’t remember, that is too much of rational thinking, just keep dancing and exchanging numbers with people on the dance floor. One day we will meet and do all this great things together, I am sure. The intuition rings alarm bells again.
With a slightly feeling of guilt, I keep thinking. “Where are the others? Will I find them?” One thought keeps popping up several times.“ I know where I parked my car, I am not drunk. As long as I know where the car is, my thoughts are rational enough. I am able to drive, I will bring everybody home safely.” And again my gut feeling is protesting against all that rationalization.
All of a sudden, the scene changes. I am standing in front of a different building. It looks like the White House of America, but it is small like a detached house. The white, this white is perfect it shines flawless, like the cleanest ivory ever seen.
We go inside this house, I am with somebody, but this somebody is faceless and bodyless he or she is just present without playing a role. Inside this building, everything is dark. Just the bar is shimmering in a very weak blue light, produced by a LED chain that is way too weak and too short for this room. It is a very big contrast to the party room, nobody is there besides a female bartender behind the counter. It is quite in there, now I can think and decide. I know what I have to do, I have to go to the bar. Ordering drinks, that is my mission.
It feels like the fun is over, the party has ended. Do I need more alcohol? I think back and forth and after putting together some willpower, I order a Mezzo Mix. The female bartender gives me two cans, even though it is very dark in this room, the cans are shining in perfect colors and in high definition.
But wait, where are my friends? Where is the car? Do I still know where the car is? Is this building in front of the other or in a complete different location? I lost orientation, but I ordered a Mezzo Mix, that means I am rational, and I can still drive. I can bring everybody home safely.
Where are they? I need to call them. I put out my mobile, it is the strangest mobile I have ever seen. It has the length of a straight banana, the display is orange, there is no menu, just a huge list of names and numbers. What are all this numbers and names? I don’t recognize, so many of them. Who is this Boris? I don’t know Boris.
Everything is getting too much. That is the point where I wake up, it is 5:30 a.m. One minute passes by before I realize there was no party no car and no White House, it was just a dream. A wave of relief goes through my body. I am so grateful that none of that chaos is part of my life. I take some notes about this dream because it was so real and surreal. After that, I decide it is a good moment to write down some sentences of gratitude on paper. That is what I do.
More of my stories:
- How I Quit Alcohol / The Point I Decided To Quit (My first story)
- 6 Month Of Sobriety
- Beer Got Me Again
- I Will Never Drink Again
- Replacing Alcohol
