In Good and in Bad Times
Whats up guys ? Today is a shitty day for me. I am here with a foot injury, I can’t walk properly. All I want to do is lay on my back, smoke weed and feel pity for myself. Exactly the right mood, to write about a question that was swirling around in my head for some time.
Will I continue to write and share when times get rough and tough ?
Will sobriety help me to show some consistency for once ?
It was always easy for me when projects and challenges were going smoothly. In time periods like this, I feel motivated and I like to share. At the moment things are going excellent, I have a great sober streak and I love to write about it.
But what if I slip up ? What if I start to drink again? The past and experience shows, that is not out of the question. It is also very possible that I will vanish, because it is better to write about the shiny success.
Behavior like this could be triggered by social media. We all love to watch and read about people excelling at their crafts, because it is interesting and satisfying. Nobody wants to see the guy typing 3 Words in 2 hours only to delete them again. Nobody is interested in a person laying around on the couch doubting everything. It is so easy to cancel your own projects, and just watch the elite at their performance.
I really try to introduce some consistency in my life. I have a clue that it would be a lot more effective, doing one thing for a long period of time. I find myself thinking a lot about the question: “ What if I had stayed with this project longer “.
Persistence and “One Thing” are magic words for me. I am 38 and I definitely haven’t found my “One Thing” . At the moment, I try to learn how to write and how to write code. What if I stay with this projects for 1 year for 2 or 5 years ? I would really love to find out !
I don’t even know why I am writing this: I guess I want to be somewhat persistent on a bad day. I also want to encourage you to write about your fails and slip-ups. It feels good and could bring you back on track again. Personally I like reading some non-perfect stories. At the end we are all human and not a shiny snap-shot on social media.
That is it, my work is done. I am crawling back to bed.
More of my stories:
- How I Quit Alcohol / The Point I Decided To Quit (My first story)
- 6 Month Of Sobriety
- Beer Got Me Again
- I Will Never Drink Again
- Replacing Alcohol
