List of Shame
I have to breathe in and out deeply before doing this. If you are underage, please zap away, this won’t be pretty. Here is a list of the horrible things I did on alcohol.
- Spending a night in a jail-cell to sober up, two times.
- Wetting the mattress while sleeping at my aunts place.
- Crashing a car. (Luckily without health consequences for others and me)
- Getting into fights (breaking the nose of 2 people), getting beaten up myself.
- Vandalism outdoors.
- Blacking out in (trains, trams, at parties, outdoors).
- Uncontrolled intake of other drugs after being drunk.
- Gambling away poker-bankrolls of 3.000$ and 5000$.
- Behaving inappropriate towards woman.
- Ignoring friends and family.
Fortunately nothing of that had long-term consequences for me and the people involved. I just can hope the people that I harmed could forgive me and move on with life.
It was the worst in my 20’s especially in my early 20’s. When I was younger, I used to joke that everything from the list above happened accidentally while being intoxicated. Sometimes I really believed there was no special correlation. Damn, how brick-faced can alcohol make you think!
With time, I learned to stay out of trouble more and more. Still I landed in hospital with 38 because of alcohol. Normally I am a relaxed and emphatic person, but alcohol changed my persona in a very scary way. That shows I shouldn’t drink a sip.
In future when I will feel the need to start drinking again, I can revisit that list and hammer it in my brain.
If you can relate to some of this, and are still drinking, please for the sake of your safety and the safety of others try to stop.
More of my stories:
- How I Quit Alcohol / The Point I Decided To Quit (My first story)
- 6 Month Of Sobriety
- Beer Got Me Again
- I Will Never Drink Again
- Replacing Alcohol
