My Biggest Fear in Sobriety
First of all, I am a spoiled westerner, if that was one of my biggest concerns.
Before COVID hit the globe, I started to go to festivals. My experience with these events came around relatively late in my life. I was out of the party scene for ten years already when I started to visit festivals.
I loved it from the first time. The freedom, the music and the people were like breaking out of everyday life and being free in another space and time continuum.
Another thing that I loved about this outdoor tent parties, was getting backed without having to worry how to get home. It was also no problem to wake up and start the day with a beer. What a bliss for a drinker. Nobody is going to judge you, put in the drinks and enjoy yourself.
I always made sure to get as much beer as possible. Absurd amounts were purchased from a Lidl shop near me. This is the beer I always got.
I still feel the cold from this can in my hand. The safety that it provided, you always knew it would be a lot of fun. I won’t deny it, it was a lot of fun. Getting the first one right after waking up and smoke joint after joint till you couldn’t find your own car at 3 a.m. What a blessing.
When I got sober, I thought all this fun and freedom would be taken away from me. How can I go and enjoy festivals without my beloved beer-can? I am just shaking my head by thinking about how much I interpreted into this. It is just a beer-can at the end of the day.
When I drank, I thought very black and white about having fun. With beer, I will go. Without beer, there is no way I am participating. Wow, that is some harsh realization.
Nevertheless, as some time passed in my sober journey, I think I am ready to go to festivals and enjoy myself without the cold helper. It is about the people the music, the weather the mood the experience and hundreds of other enjoyable and not enjoyable little things anyway.
More of my stories:
- How I Quit Alcohol / The Point I Decided To Quit (My first story)
- 6 Month Of Sobriety
- Beer Got Me Again
- I Will Never Drink Again
- Replacing Alcohol
